Last month I finished the blog series I was doing on “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron, went to Soulshine Festival and then went easy on the blogs because I’ve been integrating all the upgraded energies I was able to tune into, express and experience while on Festival grounds and then beyond them too.
I’ve been regrouping after some intense experiences and realizations that I believe were necessary, in their perfect time, and have also been starting a relationship I am excited about which is fun and delicious and makes my heart so happy.
I feel gushy and vulnerable to mention it so early on in the dynamic after having had the opposite most recently but what I know for sure is that having a strong man in my life who will stand by me while I do my ‘thang’ and share my alternative perspectives and visions for how we harmonize hue-manity at this tumultuous time in our collective story, while living a full, natural and expansive life with a man I love deeply and can support in fulfilling his dreams too is what I’ve always envisioned and desired for myself.
We’ve all experienced relationships where the give and take weren’t equal, whether that be because of capacity or misdirected willfulness, and maybe we left broken hearted that they couldn’t see our value or would have treated the relationship differently. But how could they fully see you when they were intentionally avoiding aspects of themselves?
The last dynamic I had taught me a lot about that and while the man I was unofficially involved with is great, being kept separate is not ok with me in the relationship I share the most of myself in and make the most space for. I want to be involved in my man’s life and have him involved in mine.
Why be fully committed to a part time casual job position when full time is what is desired?
I ask this because being in a situation where I never shared anything about an area of significance in my life felt like I was living a lie. It just didn’t seem congruent yet I have also learned the value of keeping certain things private too so as to not leak energy where the sacred container created in sacred union with a committed counterpart is more valuable to both when kept under wraps, at least for a time.
I wonder if you’ve ever felt the same or similarly about a dynamic you’ve been involved in?
What I know for sure is that I finally got tired of not feeling like a priority in the life of one I was prioritizing so the week before Soulshine I freed myself up to make space for a partner who wants to do life together and support one another as we walk through life united.
After a few visits back and forth I’m excited for more and am enjoying the early phases of a relationship with great potential!
And with all that being said I wouldn’t necessarily have been ready for this relationship without the clarity I got from the last one(s) because I had soul fragments to reclaim I may have previously sought in the partner I was coupling with when now that I’ve dared to retrieve them for myself, the longing for them no longer need draw a dysfunctional partner to complete that pattern in my life; the same may be true for you too if you’re resonating with my sentiments.
I’m doing my best to complete myself so I can complement my man and him complement me too without becoming codependent.
… I had no idea this was going to become my first relationship post in years but I guess it’s the way it’s meant to be as I fill you in on another exciting new development from last week: the implied offence against my person for speaking at a rally last year got stayed on September 21/22 and I received notice on the 3 year anniversary of the day I called the POLICE to report the system is corrupt and they’re in on it which led to me getting locked up under the Mental Health Act for 2.5 weeks in 2019 where I learned a lot about this world that I hadn’t realized before that experience.
Clearing my name of the implied charge from a summons I didn’t consent to pleading about, for speaking at a rally last April, has been an empowering journey that has taught me much and I’ll be sharing what I’ve learned shortly. But in the mean time I’m putting together an experience to go with it that will have you excited for the message you’ll receive the next day once you get into the series. If you want to see the video footage that was used to try laying the charge against my person it can be seen here, if you’re interested.
I’ll have another exciting update that I’m working on pulling together behind the scenes ready soon so make sure you’re subscribed to the email series on the home page and if you haven’t got a copy of my book yet well then please make that a priority so that you can get involved in the next SPECIAL Practice PILOT Program that will be launching nearer the holiday season. You can get a signed softcover shipped to you direct if you email firstname.lastname@example.org with your address and personalized message requests or you can buy the ebook, audioprogram or softcover directly online through Amazon.
With the Christmas season fast approaching I’m putting together an experience that I intend to make FULLY COMMITTED: The Sacred Sojourn of NOW the most requested present/gift in 2022. I hope you’ll help me with that and say a huge “Thank you!” in advance!!!
You’ve gotta have high, high hopes for a living and learn to rift with all that life throws your way. Yesterday I recorded this while I drove and hope you enjoy it.
PEACE is part of the equation so listen to this chapter reading on the meaning behind PEACEFULL INNER Warriors United and let’s dig into that deeper together soon!
Laura JeH – Namaste