Ever go through something that doesn’t fully make sense until other things happen to put things into perspective and everything becomes more clear?
That’s where I’m finally at with the Significant Emotional Event (SEE) that changed the way I see myself, other people and the world.
Because I can only speak from personal experience (which is what a testimony is) I will say that September 27, 2019 was the SEE that changed me because of the patterns it exposed in a heightened way and how it forced me to take my power back from places I had irresponsibly given it to before.
In last night’s SPECIAL Practice PILOT Program lesson on ‘Aligning with the NOW’ I spoke of this SEE as the cross that marked the spot where life as I knew it stopped and my new identity as one who had been through the system for speaking out against the system started. In Clarissa Pinkola Estés’ book “Women Who Run With the Wolves” she talks about the descansos which is the path of crosses that mark all the spots where life as we knew it stopped and life as who the trauma shaped us to become began until altered again by another change in path, course or trajectory.
Descansos are symbols that mark a death. To make descansos means taking a look at your life and marking where the small deaths, las muertes chiquitas, and the big deaths, las muertes grandotas, have taken place. Be gentle with yourself and make the descansos, the resting places for the aspects of yourself that were on their way to somewhere but never arrived. There is a lot to be said for pinning things to the earth so they don’t follow us around. There is a lot to be said for laying them to rest.
In hearing myself talk about 2019 as if it were the life changing experience that changed everything, and in many ways it did, I realized that it was such a significant emotional event for me I have been carrying it around with me ever since because it shaped me in so many ways.
Our identity literally has the word entity in it and reflects the image we see of ourselves and where we perceive our place (we belong) here is.
Tonight at 8:30pm EST I’m calling a meeting where Geordie Lishman will copilot a meeting about the CIA Gateway Process report that was created after 20 years of pushing people to their absolute breaking point to see if there was a way to force people into the ‘God concept’ as a point of origin/creative centre from which new life can spring forth.
This report was selected because it came into my awareness after I started experimenting with plant medicines and met more people who were already on an alternative path. In the lead up to that SEE in September 2019, when the fight between the FEARFULL and faith-full really started getting big in my world (literal on a symbolic and energetic level) and I hadn’t learned to discern who I could trust to let into my energy field. For we are electromagnetic beings and our nervous systems are tied directly into that ‘field’ of consciousness.
But what if the field was actually a reflection of the feels we have about that which is showing up in our reality?
What if we started making the connection between feelings and consciousness and see how the ultimate marriage is between our thoughts and feelings so that we can give life to an idea that will help us?
What if we saw that the alpha-bet agencies have tested the spells to see which have the greatest influencing effect and which are the least charged up energetically?
What if we started to see how we’ve been living in a simulation on a planetation called Earth which is Heart in a different order and that we are called to reassemble so that we can assemble as the creators who came here to remember our power is in our presence?
These are the things that are on my mind and in my heart at this moment in time as supper is prepared by man before we go live to discuss a report that I believe will put a lot of things into perspective including the fight between the grey, white and black that became so obvious when I was going through an expanded state of awareness right before I took things too far and got reeled way in.
Funny that movie reels reel us in that way too, eh?
Not so funny without the evil villain’s sinister laugh to accompany the obvious – black magic only works with full consent and voluntary participation. So if you walk yourself into the slaughter house then shame on you, even though it was your fellow men and women who suggested it would be a good idea to go that particular way based on what they were aware of, which is where the eyes and i’s on forms comes into the frame and I’ll reserve the right to reserve that reframe to a later date.
It’s nacho time with my man and pre-call chill time before show time and the grow time that will inevitably prove to be.
With love and hopes you’ll choose to join us at 8:30pm EST – details available through the PEACEFULL INNER Warriors United group on meetup,
Laura JeH – Namaste
PS. The title of this blog will be the theme for the next one but when this one got started with a title already in place I just kept going. Here’s to hoping you found the trip (imagination wise) worthwhile and benefit from our livestream experience tonight!