Much of our lives are spent on the way somewhere.
Since March my commute to the grocery store has added a 22ish minute drive each way to my destination and much of that time, for me, is spent in deep thought, doing decree work, listening to music or Caroline Myss’ audioprograms I’ve bought over the years, or sometimes I use my drive to connect with others.
What I’ve learned over the past year is the importance of realizing the importance of the in between stages of growth and development that may not feel significant but are.
I often refer to the process I’ve went through in writing a book that has become part of my life’s work, and how obsessed I got at times with finishing ‘the book’ so I had something tangible to show for all the effort I’ve put in to acquiring all the tools I have to share. Self-doubt and confusion has ultimately kept you from getting to enjoy the fruits of my labour yet but the good news is that, to me, the book matters a lot less now.
The book will just be where the concepts I’ve been assembling rest until they are taken up by a new torch bearer and then get used in the world we share to light up dark places and ignite those hearts who have lost touch with the purpose of life, as I’ll admit having done for quite some time.
In September when the fight between the fear-full and faith-full got too big on the inside I started to read the signs around me and link them to the fight I didn’t realize was waging at full strength within me.
It was an intense experience because I, admittedly, have a big ego and it wanted to have a memorable role in this world that just wasn’t coming together so i tried to force it. I wouldn’t recommend it, but I’m grateful I did because it was the journey my soul needed to go through to become who I am. And to also reconnect with the lost and hurting souls that I encountered on that journey.
The parable I promised to share yesterday is about a Cherokee grandfather who is talking to his grandson about life…
“A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.
“One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, self-doubt, and ego.
“The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.
“This same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather,
“Which wolf will win?”
The old chief simply replied,
“The one you feed.”
I hope that you will choose to feed the one that nourishes your soul, regardless of the immediate payoff.
I hope that you will remember your power to choose wisely and responsibly, the aspect of your own creative capacity that will best serve you in creating a life you can enjoy rather than one you must delicately traipse through for fear of disturbing the unsettled aspects of ourselves that keep us from fully living.
And above all, I hope you will take a few moments, at least once this day, to bask in the glory of being you for there has only ever been one you made for this world and regardless of whether you feel as accomplished as you’d like or not, your present in people’s lives is making an impact just as mine is in yours right now.
The question we must ask ourselves is “did I do my best?”
If the answer is yes then congratulations for honouring the process rather than just the destination!
Laura JeH – Namaste
PS. I recorded a message on my way to work yesterday that I posted last night. Have another interview to edit and upload, plus will be doing another with Michael Seegers this afternoon so check out the one that’s already up and get excited about what’s coming!! We truly are alive at an incredible time in huEmanity’s history and much of it is spent on route somewhere so enjoy the journey, and the show I made for you!