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Walking in faith: The uncapitalized kind & Overcoming ‘the test’

For the first half of 2021 I hosted weekly Sacred Self-Compassion Services on Sunday mornings and for 12 weeks I read a chapter of Julia Cameron’s “The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity.”

I bought a newer version of the book at an Antiques market last weekend when I also bought myself a commitment ring to give the man I’m calling in an example of how to put a ring on it (lol)… I playfully laugh and say I’m kidding, but at the foundation of every joke there is a hint of truth and I’m looking forward to uniting forces with the man I’m meant to build a life with!

I’ll admit I had quite a lot of healing to do to be ready for a noble gas partner as Bruce Lipton describes in “The Honeymoon Effect” which I reference in the book I wrote, along with many others, and am nearly ready to share with the world! Your support will be so appreciated and now that I finally accomplished the goal I set for myself so long ago I’m ready to start investing in others again with more regular offerings of intentionally directed insights and energy; you’ll still get a fair bit of randomness too, don’t fret 🙂

Returning to Julia Cameron’s 12 week course for discovering and recovering the artist within, which was the original subtitle my first version of “The Artist’s Way” has on it, I’m going to reference one theme per week so we can all foster the sacred relationship we have with the creative/artist archetype within.

Faith is ‘week 12’ in the text but it’s the theme I choose to start with because it is so gravely misunderstood. Should you wish to hear me read it aloud, with a short story and song at the beginning you can check this video out.

Faith and faith are different because anything in caps has been capitalized on, as per Capitis deminutio which is the way we’ve been systematically capitalized on and our faith is no exception.

In the name of being ‘proper’ we’ve learned to capitalize our letters to show respect to the subject we elevate to a higher status based on the capitalizing of the word which is the sword we create (life) sentences with that either set us free or keep us bound in captivity. But we have stopped seeing how sentence structures create the life sentences we live out until we change the script and choose to write something that will serve us better.

Julia says “Creativity requires faith… we are not accustomed to thinking that God’s will for us and our own inner dreams can coincide. Instead, we have bought the message of our culture: this world is a vale of tears and we are meant to be dutiful and then die. The truth is that we are meant to be bountiful and live.” But the moment we allow ourselves to be capitalized on, the head on the lower case i is lost and the inner eye (I) gets topped and tailed so it is boxed in and no longer free.

Written words are dead because they are rigid and no longer full of life which is breathed by the living. Alive is how we are meant to live and our words are the way that we pave a new way for ourselves, and others to follow suit, without letting suits save the man or woman choosing to act in bad faith (while wearing a suit/status/title/personage) by knowingly deceiving another in the name of a legal fiction get away for their crime, even if it has been legalized and normalized in a corrupted system based on lie-ability.

This is a big theme in “FULLY COMMITTED: The Sacred Sojourn of NOW” (my book) because I do believe that right now we are at a tipping point time in our collective story and letting men and women keep their suits on to play a part in deceiving the masses is a disservice to the ones who will come from us if we don’t destroy ourselves by letting de story be wrote by psychopaths.

“The Artist’s Way” says: “Creativity – like human life itself – begins in darkness. We need to acknowledge this. All too often, we think only in terms of light: ‘And then the lightbulb went on and I got it!’ It is true that insights may come to us as flashes. It is true that some of these flashes may be blinding. It is, however, also true that such bright ideas are preceded by a gestation period that is interior, murky, and completely necessary.”

“The creative process is a process of surrender, not control” she says and her section on “Escape Velocity” is more relevant than I can express given I emailed two authors about using sections of their work in my book on June 1st and within a week I had a reply from Marianne Williamson’s team giving me the ‘go ahead’ to use her poem Our Deepest Fear which comes from her book “A Return To Love.”

After learning more about copyright permissions I discovered I don’t actually need permission to use the other author’s words because the section I selected is less than the 8 sentence requirement so on Thursday when I submitted my first round of edits for the interior and cover I was feeling excited to be one more proof away from the printers. But wouldn’t you know Friday afternoon I then received an email from the other artist saying she didn’t want to attract attention to the books she’d wrote so didn’t want me to include the section I’ve currently got in there…

Escape Velocity temporarily barred, or could have been if I didn’t know how to claim my rights and exercise them.

I felt irritated this reply had taken more than two weeks and I’d already moved forward and onto final steps. The reason seems unreasonable to me as well so I’ll be sending a lawful notice to claim the right to use words I believe will serve others the way they have me. And so it is that I received ‘the test’ that Julia writes about in the chapter I chose to start our weekly themed blogs off with.

I’m in the trenches as a creative that has learned to better manage my energetic resources and while I lost sleep the first night, I loved a short video I saw of Drake this morning about his Mom’s 72 hour rule which says letting something simmer for 3 days/nights will deescalate our emotionality around it so we can respond instead of react.

Lawful notices are a great way to do that in fact because it takes off the status of almost-author to author and takes us back to what we truly are (women who write as a way to contribute to this world).

We don’t know what someone’s life is like until we know them deeply and even then we will only know what they are willing to share with us. What I am most grateful for is that Marianne said yes and I can share her work with gratitude because she graciously offered encouragement to an aspiring author who has benefitted from her contributions to this world. For that I am grateful, as I am the contrast too.

Contrast is meant to help us gain clarity as to our preferences. I prefer getting what I want but standing my ground when I know I’m not causing harm, loss or fraud to another and simply want to share something I received value from with others who might benefit too is something I am willing to do. Knowing how to put another man or woman on notice is empowering because no longer do we need to get middle-men involved who are seen to have more power than the ones directly involved in the situation.

I have faith that my intentions are of the greatest and highest good and ‘the test’ was meant to help me stay fully committed despite the pushback I received right before launch time.

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Grateful to be connected and walking this journey inward with you!

In good faith,

Laura JeH – Namaste

PS. If you watch the video of me reading the chapter from last year you’ll see a picture of Saint Germain and Jesus I no longer have for significant reasons I’ll share another day. For now I’ll just say we do the best we can with what we know until we’re wiser and can do better with the wisdom gained from our lived experience. These past few years have certainly been a journey! 

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